A little over one year ago, I was dreaming and talking with God. I felt him ask me, “What is your wildest dream?” That is a loaded question and I have taken more than a decade to bury my wildest dream under fear, practicality, family obligations, and other dreams deemed more reasonable.
It took me a moment. I quieted myself and began to peel away the excuses that sealed my wildest dream deep in my heart.
I wanted to be a writer.
More than that I wanted to write about things that mattered most to me. The journey between saying “Yes” to Jesus and meeting him face to face. the growing of ones spirit in the ways of God. Freeing individuals from the snares of religion. I wanted to share my woes and my triumphs with whomever would care to listen. These hopes–once held up to God with un-clinched hands–were released last year and I began to pursue the possibilities.
One year and a month later…
I am about to finish my second devotional ebook. The first one (here) came quickly and more easily. I needed to prove I could do it. I will most likely look back at this work with a fairly critical opinion. At least, I hope so. I hope I continue to grow and surpass the early 2014 writer that I once was. But it is a finished work nonetheless. This second one did not come so easily. The fears that I boldly shut out the first time came back with vengeance. I chose a topic that I am quite certain is as vast as the ocean and as important as air. I am both inadequate to fully explain it, yet passionately consumed by trying.
My hope is that those who read it learn something new, and more importantly, feel encouraged to go on their own exploration journey. The topic is the Holy Spirit. I want to spark a desire in others to pursue a daily, intimate relationship with him. I want to kill some of the stigma that he gets because he is a spirit.
I am releasing in December–hopefully. I feel the weight of completing a project this week, and hope that talking about it, will shed light and cause the darkness to flee. I am standing on one of my favorite verses this week as I plow through the final stages of the writing portion.
2 Timothy 1:7
For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love, and self-discipline.
I trust that the very Holy Spirit that dwells in me is the one that is sustaining me and giving me the words to say. I know this is not a perfect work as I, an imperfect human, still control the keys of the computer. But I trust my imperfect work can still bless and liberate those who are hungry for fresh perspective on Holy Spirit.
To God be the glory!